Congratulations…it’s Friday! It’s almost time to put our feet up and relax for a couple days. Yet again I was wrong when I thought this was going to be a chill week. I think I spent most of it taking care of things for the apartment, on hold with Spectrum for 2 hours, and waiting at doctor offices.
That’s okay though because I’m on my way to Cincinnati! Yes, one of my favorite cities and where I hope to be after graduation. I’ll be visiting my cousins for a few days and touring the University of Cincinnati. Not going to lie, I’m also pretty excited to get away from the craziness that seems to plague me in Tampa. The only downside is that I have a 3.5-hour layover in Atlanta today, but I can’t complain. Life is good 🙂
Something amazing happened to me this past week…I didn’t have Internet! And wait, it gets better. My cable went out on Tuesday, so I was also without TV.
It’s funny, I was a little upset about this at first, but now I’m sort of sad that we got it all back. I’ll admit it was nice being disconnected for a few days. Although I still had my phone, I decided to spend my nights reading, and I managed to finish 1.5 books! I’m pretty proud of that.
But the best thing that happened was that I felt at peace. There weren’t a bunch of things pulling me in a hundred different directions. I only had one choice, and that was to be with myself. Not to mention the fact that I also slept better. Maybe the “no screen time before bed” nonsense has some truth to it…who would have thought scientists might actually be right?
Being disconnected reinforced an idea that I heard earlier this week…
“We are born with everything we need.” ~ Nathaniel Solace
I had to stop and think about that for a second when I heard it, but maybe it’s actually true. Think about the room when we are born. Think about who’s there. Think about who’s watching over us. Finally, think about us. What do we see?
I see my family surrounding me. I see God watching over me, and I see my little body taking care of itself. My heart is beating on its own, I don’t have to tell myself to breathe, and I’m conscious.
Now think about life today. Who is around us? Who is watching over us? What’s keeping us alive?
Our family is still there. God is still watching over us, and we’re still keeping ourselves alive. Sure, we might have a few more friends surrounding us, but really nothing has changed about those three things.
Whether you’re young or old, that’s both a scary and beautiful fact.
For me, it’s scary because we spend our lives trying to acquire more. Whether its money, a partner, a promotion, a new house or car, or another college degree, we have this desire and societal push to gain more. So this lesson makes me wonder whether the way we live life is a lie.
Yet, this fact is also beautiful for that very reason. The need and push to constantly acquire more is exhausting. All of those “successes” require hours, days, and years of hard work and dedication. They drain us, so to accept this fact is slightly relieving.
So this week when I had no technology, I really decided to embrace this mantra. I took the time to read and ask myself questions since I couldn’t spend hours on the computer researching careers and schools. And while initially uncomfortable, I found relief in catching up with myself and observing how my emotions and desires have both changed and been reinforced.
In the process, I realized I’ve spent so long focusing on searching for the perfect career, that I’ve been ignoring signs God has been giving me. I’ve been so focused on researching and reading that I never really slowed down enough to ask myself what I actually want and to think about what makes me happy. So I’ve been working on that this week, and I’ve been able to explore a few situations that have been particularly impactful. But more on that in another post…
Something else that happened as a result of disconnecting was that I talked to my mom every night for almost twice as long as we normally do. Though we already talk every night, we usually run though the same routine…”How was your day?”. “What did you have for dinner?”, and “What do you have going on tomorrow?” Sure we still covered all those topics, but we also just talked and I really enjoyed that.
So I guess you could say that although I had nothing by today’s standards, I felt like I had more than I’ve ever needed.
And when I think about the future and graduate school and money problems and everything that goes along with that, I realize that it’s all going to be okay. As long as I make the next right decision, I really can’t go wrong because I’ll have all the support that I’ll ever need.
This can apply to any of us whether you’re in the same boat as myself, thinking about launching a new business or going back to school, or want to move across the country. Sure, there are going to be roadblocks, and yes we are going to have to take some detours along the way. That’s inevitable…but no matter what decision we make, we’re going to be okay. We have everything we need and ever will need.
I hope you all enjoyed this post! Don’t forget to like, comment, and share 🙂
FYI, I plan on working on the website during my layover in Atlanta…so stay tuned! The new name is official…Taking Back Today.
Also, Facebook just launched a new policy that I cannot automatically post my blog posts to my Facebook profile anymore. I can only have that happen if I have a Facebook page dedicated to this blog. So stay tuned for that as well! In the meantime, my posts will now be going up around 8am versus 6am. I hope that’s okay!
And to close, I’d like to share this poem…
REMEMBER YOUR GREATNESS
“Before you were born,
And were still too tiny for
The human eye to see,
You won the race for life
From among 250 million competitors.
How fast you have forgotten
When your very existence
Is proof of your greatness.
You were born a winner,
One who defied the odds
By surviving the most gruesome
Battle of them all.
And now that you are a giant,
Why do you even doubt victory
Against smaller numbers,
And wider margins?
The only walls that exist,
Are those you have placed in your mind.
And whatever obstacles you conceive,
Exist only because you have forgotten
What you have already
~ Suzy Kassem